I'm getting very sick of what I've turned into lately. I'm pulling my hair out. My friends are pulling their hair out. Heck, even people who don't like me are trying to figure out what's going on.
I know what I want to do with myself. But, I lack the strength. I need something. A trigger? A catalyst? I don't know what.
I spent a lot of today on my drums (in RL) beating the crud out of them. My ears are shot for the rest of the day. I finally downloaded Cage The Elephant from Amazon and I've been listening to In One Ear over and over.
I'm trying to get the message.
I know my friends want me back. I want me back too.
How do I come back?
What direction do I go?
I need Need NEED to get out of this funk.
I'm frigg'n Immy!!!
I can be the biggest little crud on the grid if I just get my head together.
But, what's going to be the catalyst? How am I going to get my confidence back? Where did I go so wrong and how can I put that behind me?
Working on this.
Hating myself for killing the Emoticons. Finding delays when I backspace them out of chat.
Going to go say "Hi" to someone on my friends list now and see what comes of it. I'm rarely that bold.